Very intense piece. Extremely deep and insightful writing of an inner conflict that still haunts you for what appear to be multiple bad experiences when you were young. The very good news is that you have identified the problem in detail and in writing. That is the first step to putting this nightmere behind you for good! Now your published problem becomes the story of the underdog winning the big game. In summary it is clear that you have won in the battle between you and your tormentor. You have exposed him, if only to yourself, in writing so now it is time to file him away for ever in the pool of lost memories. Now youy are free and your beautiful self can finally live the life you want to live. So your poem is actually a serious success story in the making and you deserve it! Congradulations Sativa I knew you would get there. Miss you lots!